do it the glamorous way

Thursday, May 31, 2007, 1:21 AM

Grief-stricken.

I've never felt lugubrious before as i am now. It just sucked to have this feeling of sorryness, troubled and morose. The last thing i needed was another misunderstanding. Wait. Correction. Its not even the last thing on my mind.

Why does it always have to be about it. It bores me to hell when we debate about it. And i hate debating. I said a couple of things which should not be uttered out. And i apologised. I already apologised! Hey, people said inaccurate and unsubstantial things when they're fuming mad don't they? Or was it just me? I don't know. Whatever it is, i realised what i said was wrong.

To whom it may concern, i'm sincerely sorry over what had happened. And what was being said. And no it's not a 50-50 like what you said. You got it all wrong. And i didnt expect you would say that to me either. So to you....till we meet again. I hope.

Ouhhh God. I need therapy.

I really do.

~ooxxOX~

Tuesday, May 29, 2007, 5:13 PM

A little less conversation

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Birthday:	9th July.
Birthplace:	Singapore General Hospital.
Current Location:	In my room.
Eye Color:	Dark brown.
Hair Color:	Dark brown.
Height:	1.62m.
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Rt handed.
Your Heritage:	Indian muslim.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Green Topshop pumps.
Your Weakness:	Upon seeing the sickly.
Your Fears:	The last day, the next world.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Ones with lotsa cheese and no capsicum.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	A certified Staff Nurse.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"You talk about me as if i'm an obsession. Bitch, get over me!"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	What time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:	My ASS?
Your Bedtime:	2am?
Your Most Missed Memory:	Alot to mention.
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds.
Single or Group Dates:	Well it depends though.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Seasons ice lemon tea can?
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolatessss.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino.
Do you Smoke:	Nope
Do you Swear:	Ermmmm. I do. heh
Do you Sing:	Yeap. In the bathroom.
Do you Shower Daily:	Like duhhh!
Have you Been in Love:	Like totally yes.
Do you want to go to College:	I alredy got a diploma.
Do you want to get Married:	Of course. Who wouldn't?
Do you belive in yourself:	I do. I do. I do.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Sometimes. And it sucks.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Ermm. What do you think? Cos i can't think now.
Are you a Health Freak:	Not really.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Can't live w/o them.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Who does?
Do you play an Instrument:	A recorder? Haha.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Nope.
In the past month have you Smoked:	Nope.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Yeap. Menstrual pills. Heh.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Date? ouhhh DATEs you mean? Haha.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	My last was few hours ago.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Just a packet.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	I just ate it last week.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Dumped? Donkey years ago.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Hehhhehh. Shhhhhh.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Not that i know of.
Ever been Drunk:	I don't drink remember?
Ever been called a Tease:	Hehhhe. I am one.
Ever been Beaten up:	Yeap. By my 4yr old little sister.
Ever Shoplifted:	Hmmmm. 15yrs ago.
How do you want to Die:	Peacefully. 'Mati dalam imannnn'
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	A rich successful healthcare professional + A wife to a loving hubby + A mommy to beautiful kids
What country would you most like to Visit:	France

, 1:40 PM

HAPPyNESS

This is what i got from my mom...

yeap....A STRESS BALL.

Thanks mom. Well i think she knows her beloved daughter here is having some form of affliction, agony, protraction or in simpler terms...stress laaa. Even my 'red light' was late. Hmmmm. That's not the point actually.

Ok so, stress-ness aside. Let's talk about something else shall we. I've never been much more happier ever since the day i was at boyfie's place which was a couple of days ago. And the reasons for such happiness was because...

His mom bought me this...

That's right. What does it look like? Some lace and satin for Raya costume!

I felt sooooo touched, blessed and i was ecstatic. For a moment i thought i was day-dreaming. But it's true. All true. I'm not dreaming. I'm holding that piece of purple thingy in my hands. And guess what...i can't wait for raya-ing already. HAHA. Looks like boyfie and i will be purple this year!! What's yours?

yeee...puase pon belom nak raya plak ni pompan!

Ouhhhh welllll...i just love these people who loves me.

~ooxxOX~

Sunday, May 27, 2007, 7:59 PM

Ain't no other MAN

Dear Boyfie...

I could feel it from the start
I couldn't stand to be apart
Something about you caught my eye
Something moved me deep inside
Don't know what you did but you had it
And i've been hooked ever since
Everytime i see you everything starts making sense
There's no other man can stand up next to you
No other man on the planet does what you do
You're the kinda guy i find in a blue moon
Never thought i will be alright
Until you came and changed my life
What was cloudy now is clear
You're the light that i need
and you got what i want
You are there when i'm a mess
Talk me down from every ledge
You gave me strength and you're the best
You're the only one who ever passed every test

I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one elses

And i'm telling you that there's no other man but YOU.

~ooxxOX~

Friday, May 25, 2007, 11:08 PM

You make my day!

These past couple of days, i've been spending most of my time at the hospital visiting my uncle on my maternal side. He's kinda recuperating but still unconscious. Hopefully his condition does not deteriorate after being transferred frm ICU to the general ward. The thing about general ward is that nurses there tends to be very busy with other patients and the nursing care towards my uncle's declining. Not like in ICU where one nurse is in-charge of only 2 patients.

Credits to 10 year old Nurul for the picture.

Yesterday, despite the mind-boggling about my uncle's condition, boyfie made my day by being all friendly towards all my cousins. The aunts, uncles and the little ones especially. And they LOVE him!! I mean they enjoyed his companion. Everytime i came out from the room they sure was laughing to God knows what they were talking about. Boyfie and Abg Moksin can't stop talking about bikes, work and of all topic, MAKAN PLACES. Damn right it is.

Night came, and we're all ready to leave the ward. After we said our good-byes, boyfie and i didn't went home but visited his friend's dad instead, who's just one level below. It was visiting-marathon for us that day. HAHA. Thenafter, boyfie sent me home. I had fun on the bike. Maybe because of the happiness i had. Aniways, that night was contrary. He practically ride till under my block. And i really mean UNDER the block, in front of the lift. How much more detailed can it be? Sorry boyfie. Your bike's too barn door! It can't fit the lift. Whatever it is...

He's the best gift from God for me!

~ooxxOX~

Thursday, May 24, 2007, 10:49 AM

I LOVE my girls...

Happy 20th Birthday gurlfren!
Celebrated at Sentosa and it was 'OOH-SO-SUPERB'. The brownie was baked by me and it's from Hersyies Chocolate. 'OOH-SO-DELICIOUS!'. Heh.

Group huggggssss! I simply loooove these people. You rock my world girls!

That's from Titi for the bday girl. 2 pairs of bras. Full set summore you!
p/s: one day one bra horrr!!!

Yeap. GUESS what? that was from me. haha. You deserve it girl.

And GUESS what Titi?! You're not forgotten too babe. She's got that from me for her 'OOH-SO-BELATED' birthday. haha.

OK. Let's stop GUESSing shall we.

After lunching and the present-giving, it's time to say HELLO to the sun.
I'm proud to say these are my 'OOH-SO-KECOH' girlfrens.

Ok Mr Sun. We're tired of you. And so are you.

credits to Titi for this photographic picture.

There you go. What does it look like huh?

We just loooove SURABAYA don't we girls?

Titi must have taken this. That girl just love posterior shots.

Ouhh. It was at FORUM by the way.

That's the last and a GOOD-BYE picture from us.

so BYE-BYE!!

~ooxxOX~

Tuesday, May 22, 2007, 11:02 PM

New tops for me please...

This was what i did today...

Called up Titi to accompany me to town.

Met Izzy at Outram to pass some documents (which she then left).

Titi insisted on eating 'AYAM PENYET' and so SURABAYA at Lucky Plaza it is.

I'm soooo loooooving the AVOCADO juice lah caaan.

And the chicky's waiting to be eaten!!

Titi relishing her 'ES TEH LEMON' (ice lemon tea).

Look at that. We're two hungry little pigs. HAHA.

Need for some new tops and FAR EAST's the best place.

And these were the tired faces after the rounds we made at the mall.

And so...it's a GOOD-BYE then!

~ooxxOX~

Sunday, May 20, 2007, 10:21 PM

Well Wishes...

First and foremost....

Happy 26th Birthday dearest cuzzie!

Yeap. She turned 26 yesterday actually. Celebrated at granny's crib and it was OHH-SO-KECOH! Haha. As always...our extended families has never been a..NOISELESS one. Every week and every gathering there's always things to be blathered about. And politics is a MUST to be gabfested. HAHA.

Later in the late evening, boyfie and i visited my uncle who's in a comatosed stage at Tan Tock Seng hospital (ICU). It was very devastating to see him like that as he was always seen to be a healthy man. And to make this feelings worst was what the doctor said. He verbalised that there's nothing left for them to do but to just wait till he stops breathing. And that felt like a knife was stabbed to the heart. Really. I mean who could accept it. Nobody. But then, life and death is in God's hands. All we hope for is for miracle to happen and we'll always pray for the best. And there'll be no end to the prayers. I really(10x) simpatised my aunt (the wifey) whose very tearful. ALWAYS tearful.

And with boyfie being sick and losing his appetite...i hope things will really get better. I missed the OLD you boyfie. I do.

I really do.

~ooxxOX~

Saturday, May 19, 2007, 11:07 PM

CUT IT.

I cut my hair. Yes i did cut my hair AGAIN. haha. I got irritated by it and so the saloon's calling me. And no. Definitely not botak or anything. It's just the posterior part of it and i kept the anterior. I know my hair was short. But now's even shorter! And no dearest brother. It does not even look like a BUTCH. Well..that was the first word he uttered upon seeing my hair. Whatever. Anyways, without further ado, let's just witness a couple of photos...

Voila! It doesn't even look BUTCHy isn't it! haha.

Well brother, you definitely need to get your fashion sense straight. Aniway, i'm supposed to like keep it long cos boyfie missed the long hair i once had. On the other hand, his mom said.. "why keep long hair? rimas kan. potong pendek sudah." Well, his mom suggested me to cut my hair due to the uneasiness which i will encounter. Cheyy. Sorry boyfie. I'll have to go with your mom. Cos mom's knows best! HAHA. How much cooler can she be?!

But then again, my mom on the other hand wanted me to keep it long. As according to her, and i quote...

"you can't get married if your hair's not long!"

Can you believe it?! Yes. She did said that to me because according to her, and i quote again...

"your wedding picture won't look nice with short hair la."

Ok! let's get this straight mom shall we? I'M NOT GETTING MARRIED ANYTIME SOON. For goodness sake. And believe it or not that isn't the first time she said it. It started eversince i first cut my hair short. Ouhh well...it's not that i'm furious at her or anything. I know she's just saying it for the sake of SAYING it. But on second thoughts, she's quite true. And once again...mom knows best isn't it?

HAHA. Now i'm confused.

~ooxxOX~

, 2:11 PM

You wonder...

Ok so in today's entry, i hope you people just spare me some time with these questionnaires which i was forced to dope out ages ago. HAHA. So..this is for you.

1. Single, taken or crushing?
I was crushingly single before i was taken. HEH.

2. Are you happy with your life now?
I'm more to content.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love first?
I suppose?

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. It was bleeding profusely till there was a need for blood transfusion. HAHA.

5. Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Nope. Definite NO-NO for me.

6. Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
There's always a 2nd chance. Right?

7. Have you talk about marriage with another before?
He did talk about it. So yeah and we're planning to get married tomorrow. HAHA. crap!

8. Do you want children?
Of course. God if you're reading this, i want cute chubby little ones please. Ouh and with big eyes and curly hair! can I?

9. How many children you would want to have?
2? One boy. One girl.

10. Would you consider adoption?
I would if i could. I see kids as the product of our love. cheyyy. touching seyyy.

11. If someone likes you right now, what's the best way to let you know his feelings?
Ermmm. I prefer to not know. Really.

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationship?
I'm having the time of my life. Hell yeaaa I do.

13. Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
Hmm. What a predicament! I'm shy and it's combined with acute embarassement. HAHA. so please EXcuse me!

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yeaaaa! Mine was. Although it takes time to know if it's for real.

HAHA. Like finally. I spilled the beans. Satisfied mate?!

Izzy. Dian.

Don't hate me for this but you've been tagged!

HAHA. amek kao. JAWAB JAWAB!!

And so...i'll be gone.

~ooxxOX~

Friday, May 18, 2007, 10:32 AM

Love me. Will you?

Waiting for tonight.

When you would be here in my arms.

I've dreamed of this love for so long.

It feels good in the air everytime you're here.

Don't keep me waiting, anticipating.

I'm soo waiting for you tonight.

~ooxxOX~

Thursday, May 17, 2007, 6:37 PM

Gone and Back

And yes. This is my next episode of blogging. It's been long since i had my personal blog. Don't ask me why and what happened. I just missed it. And since i had nothing useful enough to do at home, i shall start a brand new and i just can't see why not.

Lots of things and i really mean ALOT have been happening around me. The highlights will be; I'm becoming a STAFF NURSE. And yes believe it or not it's freaking true. That fast huh. Ouh well, i had my fair share of hard work and preseverence for the past 3 years of my tertiary life.

Speaking of which, i missed my whole lot of people. The 'BANGAUs' (Egret) according to Izzy. I missed school atmosphere, lecture theatres and in mist of all - the McDonalds. Where we spent most of our day slacking and talking shits and stuffs. Ouhh i really missed those days.

If you want me to talk about missing and misses now, i'll tell you i have loads to be missed. Which i'm pretty sure you people wouldn't wanna know.

So, before i move on and on... i shall take my leave.

~ooxxOX~